Slapped in the Face.

I typically don't pour my heart out here, but I think today I might need to. I kind of need the therapy of it if you will.

I had lunch room duty at Aidan's school today, which I didn't think would turn into a reality check, but it did. I noticed about 5 minutes into lunch that Aidan was sitting alone. Then 10 minutes. Then 15 minutes. I walked over and asked him if he ever sat with any friends and he said "sometimes". Broke my heart.

After lunch, the kids go out and play at recess. I know this is where Aidan shines. He's an athlete and loves playing sports, and I thought all the kids loved him. But I was wrong. It was hard to watch my sweet little boy stand in the middle of kids playing football and soccer and wait for someone to throw or kick something at him. All the kids just played - as if Aidan was invisible. Broke my heart even more.

Don't get me wrong, we know Aidan's a little socially awkward. This isn't a newsflash to us. That's what makes Aidan "Aidan". We love it. He makes us laugh every single day. Everyone loves him. But, kids don't get him. They just think he's weird. And today that was made clear to me. It's hard to watch and for some reason, I was totally unprepared for it.

I'm so grateful for so many things in my life. I'm also very grateful that Aidan's health has steadily improved every single year and what was once a constant worry for me is somewhat a thing of the past. Sure, he gets sick alot, but I can handle that any day. At least I know that now his health won't hold him back anymore the way it used to. This is totally different. This is him and this is how he is. There's nothing we can do to make him different.

I'll take Aidan the way he is any day. I just wish 10 year old boys could see how great he is too...

Shoo Flu

Well, we're almost through with Day 4 of Aidan having the flu. I know we just found out he had it yesterday afternoon, but he has been really sick since Monday afternoon. I can't say how much I'm ready for things to get back to normal around here. My kids being sick totally stresses me out - beyond words actually - and I'm ready to have my life back. I just hope Liam manages to escape it.

Aidan and I have been sleeping on the couch since Sunday. Thank God we bought a huge sectional a few months back. There's room for both of us to be comfortable. But honestly I miss my bed.

Hanging On

This has been one of those weeks that I'd rather forget. If it's not one thing, it's definitely another.

Aidan came home from school Monday not feeling great. He sat on the couch when he got home and didn't get up until 8:30. He was was definitely not himself. He started running fever, he didn't want to eat and he was tired. I finally took him in today and they tested him for strep and the flu. Flu it is. Great. He hasn't had the flu in about 5 years. And yes, he's had a flu shot. My kids being sick stresses me out and I can't wait for him to start feeling better.

We've been in the process of buying a house. We haven't really talked about it with anyone because we didn't want to jinx it. But, there have been so many things happening in this process that jinxing it at this point is far beyond our concern. All we need is some luck and we'll have the house that all 4 of us really really want. I guess a few prayers wouldn't hurt either.

Because we are in the middle of trying to buy a house, we decided we wouldn't decorate for Christmas this year. All we've done is put up the Christmas tree - the ghetto Christmas tree that I hate. I guess I never realized how much my over the top Christmas decorations get us all in the Christmas spirit. Lesson learned.

I've been out of my workout routine for one reason or another for the past 2 weeks. Now that I'm feeling fine and my feet seem to be doing better, it's too dang cold to hit the streets in the morning after I take the kids to school. I know I could probably just do my workout some time in the afternoon or evenings, but I'm a morning workout person and if I don't get it done first thing, I won't get it done at all. So, I broke down and pulled out the treadmill this week and started my "winter workout routine". Blech. I'd honestly rather poke my eyeballs out, but that's just not necessary. Dreadmill it is.

And don't even get me started on my tan. It's fading and I hate it.

So, to sum up this blog, I'm in a funk and need to find a way out of it and fast. It's December after all and I should be enjoying it. Oh and just in case anyone was wondering, I haven't figured out the new direction I want to take with my blog just yet, so I'm sticking with what I know for now. Enjoy.

Changing It Up

I haven't been blogging much lately. Mostly because the things I usually talk about on here - kids, family, life, etc., sometimes get me in trouble for one reason or another. So, I think I'm going to change it up a bit. Take my blogging in a new direction. I'm not sure what direction to go, but we'll see how it goes.

That's it. That's all I've got for now. Wish me luck and inspiration. Have a great day!